disheartened

the process of waiting,

it seems long but yet

looking forward very much to something

but waiting in suspense..

time,

is the killer of everything..

when u waited & waited,

doing nothing,

in the end,

u decided to give up waiting

& move on doing other things.

“The sudden disappointment of a hope leaves a scar which the ultimate fulfillment of that hope will never entirely removes ”

maybe i'm over looking forward?

maybe i'm expecting too much but in the end did not happen like that?

maybe i shouldn't have just waited for u & i should go ahead with my things?

u don't seems to understand why i feel so disheartened & disappointed about u..

maybe u think that i'm throwing a tantrum?

maybe u don't seem that it's really a big fuss?

maybe u think that it's not a major issue having someone waiting for u or can just tell the perosn not to wait for u?

initial,

the waiting is becuz i'm looking forward.

expecting to meet u.

i don't mind waiting.

appreciative is easy to express.

but do u really truly appreciated?

if i didn't voice out how i felt,

would u feel sorry about what u did for not planning beforehand?

would u appreciate my accompany & accomodating towards your time?

i've explained enough.

i'm not going to let myself to wait aimlessly anymore.

i feel very disheartened & disappointed.

disheartened about the situation (as this is not first time that i've waited in similar cases)

disappointed about your managing & planning ( if u wouldn't know what time u'll finish, then don't lift up my expectations on looking forward)

in a situation like this,

no one is wrong or right.

i can only admit myself for expecting too much.

i'll drop on whatever expectations that i have next time & just accept.